April's Shine, day 3/30: honoring creation

Welcome to day 3 of April's SHINE!

Today I share a few of the things I "do" every day to keep everything smooth and.. conscious..

I write journal, I make a drawing, I drink green smoothies, I write my love journal. 

It makes me realize what amazing things I have in my life and it makes also a good material anchor for my (shining) process. 

Thus, an invitation for you to start doing some of these things, if not all of them:-) If I can do it, you can:-) 

Some of you said that you do not know what to write or draw in your journal. 
How to start?

To that, I would like to lovingly nudge you to just start doing something, whatever. 

Maybe you have big plans? Start putting them on paper, wherever you can start from (even  or even better if it is the end result).  It's much much more powerful to start making a plan on paper than looking at it in your head and day dreaming about it. 
Do you want to start writing that book? Why not now, today, this minute (ok, you can read my blog first:-) )..? 

Do you feel like your hand wants to draw something  and you feel like you cannot draw it? Start doing it. Do it like you see it. let your hand just go it's own way!

Confession time:-) Some years ago I discovered that I just cannot make art, write "good" things, make beautiful drawings, etc. all the time. Can you relate? In the beginning of a new creation faze I just have to get the junk out. And depending on what the creative faze is, I have to first let my hands do whatever comes to them:-) 
I do not know how it is for other people because this is not a topic I ever ever discussed with anyone until now but not allowing my hands to let the junk out impedes on me doing anything right further down the road.. That is why I had sometimes some issues with performing right away - especially in my job as an architect. I had to first draw the weird stuff and only after that I could draw something "nice".
When I discovered that about myself it was a relief in a way - because now I knew that if I did "the weird" for a while I would be able to do the "good after.. It was also something (else!!) that made me "different", you know what I mean..:-)
Now that I accepted that I see that creation for me goes in cycles. I have days in which everything I make or write is muddy or.. "stuffy".. And I have days I am inspired to the max.  
Either way, I feel that all our creations are not coming "from" us, but "through" us. I say, being creative is being a good and trained channel. It means for me that I first have to give myself permission to let things go through me. 
Like a pipe that has not let water through for some time, in the beginning of a new experiment the "water" that comes out is not so pretty or nice to drink.. But when I let the water run, it eventually comes out sweet and clean..

....(ehhhmmm if I go further with that metaphor does not serve my point - one of these next days I am going to write about the real water coming from our kitchen pipes:-) )

So... if you need to, go ahead and scrach something, write nonsense, draw no form or just throw collors on top of each other with no intention to order them whatsoever. Try it. It can be really liberating. Do not make it pretty.

One of the things I always consider is that to go somewhere I really want to know where I am now. Where are you now?

.. maybe there is something that bothers you? My invitation is to just start looking at it. Writing or drawing it (or scratching it!!) makes it looser and easier to look at, even if that means you have to write/draw it 10-15 times. In the past, when something bothered me I usually wanted to talk about it - and sometimes I did that with my very forgiving friends - or with somebody that could help me straighten it out. Lately I discovered that I do not want to share my s*** (stuff:-D) with my friends. That is NOT why they are my friends.. So I spare them and I share it with my journal. Sometimes we get so blocked in our sharing that it feels like writing to ourselves has no effect.. We want to share our stuuuff with the woooorld.. But think about it: of our stuff was literally the color and the smell of stuff, would you not be a bit more careful in spreading it around? I thought you would. Give it to the paper instead:-)

Or... maybe you hide something somewhere very deep but it tries to come to the surface? Write it and keep it in a secret place. Like all muddy stuff (physical or not) it's better "out" than "in".. Later we can look at ways to work about it. If you feel I can help, please write to me. (and please know that I will never share anything that you ask me not to!). 
However you go about it, please know that If something wants to bubble up to the surface and you don't like it, you can always work the muddy stuff out of your body and system. There are many many ways to do that and you do not have to live with it. Please trust me on that. I've been there, done that, big time, many times.. I know it looks scary and many people are afraid to look "inside". I was and it did. 
I see people around me that are afraid to work their stuff. We all have our stuff and our fears. In my opinion, the more you work it, the more liberated you'll feel. I know there must be a reason I have to write about it now. And there certainly is a reason that you are reading it. If it touches you, do something about it, it's time. And the first step you can make right now, is putting whatever wants to come out, on paper.

There are many ways to do that and for the ones who are used to journaling, I invite you to find a way that is not that familiar.
Here are some ideas and you can maybe choose one that you did not try before:

• the classical is just write whatever comes up. Even if you want to write a book, today you do not have to find that first sentence or write that first page, just write something that you feel inspired about, start somewhere and do it in your own language, use no fancy words, do not look at calligraphy, or spelling, or phrase logics. write how you speak.
• you can also try writing with your less dominant hand, some people advise. It sucked for me at times cause I had no patience or time. It helped at other times when V. was sleeping on my right arm:-); And at one point in my life I loved to write with my left hand in the mirror. It felt very easy and loved the strangeness of it.
• ... if you are a journaling person already, try blogging:-) 
• If you are a blogger.. get back to writing in your journal
• try writing a letter to the future you;
• .. or to a past you;
• doodle some words 
• take a bit piece of paper or a canvas and make a mess of it:-)
• write/ draw intuitively, do not think about it. Just write words. Just draw lines. Just put colors down. no though. just doing.

Let your hair down today and start doing something like you never did before:-)

I am grateful for your love and what you share with me and please give a big hug and much love to yourselves.

igniting day 3: all is well

Thus we get to my pieces for today:

• honoring life day 3;
• igniting day 3;
• nourishing day 3;
• empowering day 3; 

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