So much Gratitude for my subscribers!
Amazing people are joining the shine rainbow and I see the ripples of the inspiration that flows through me. Thank you for the everyday's ideas and beauty - as I am conscious that Ioana is just a channel.
Thank you for the things that brought me here, the higher vibration wind I am traveling on since a few years ago.
Thank you for insights and for the simple small sparks of understanding that come through my heart at times when I feel out of sorts. Since I write this love journal everyday I notice that I have a pattern I want to get out of - a pattern that was uncomfortably invisible before - kinda like the pink elephant under the rug under the coffee table in the middle of the living room.. Not that I have a coffee table or that I drink coffee but you know what I mean:-)
I am also grateful for the reminders I get to enjoy the moment and to look at the moment as it is. When V. does things I do not like - and he does that quite often at the time - I am reminded every time about how much I would miss this interaction if he would not be here with me. As he is growing up, he seems to look a lot for the truth in what he feels and not being able to express it to himself - who does?.. Even "big people" are not able to express what they feel and it is for me not the why that is important but how to support him. And I admit, it does not work every time as I have my own projections still and I hear bells going at times - but the sometimes I manage to just be there with him are amazing awareness lessons. And as I am puzzled at how to "solve" things for him (as I am a lot in my man energy so that I am able to run things around here) - I am also allowing myself to be caring and open to his whatever needs - unexpressed and buried under the more obvious behavior and demands..
One of the things that puzzle me at this moment is his real hate for the "wind" - which he had at times in his life until now - but which in the last few month is developing into a real issue for both of us. I cannot even let a door or the window open without him closing it or, if he can't, really bursting into tears and crying until the door or window shuts. Going out of the house has become impossible and as the winter passed I thought I should just wait for the things to sort themselves out when the good weather would come. Things did not sort themselves out yet and, while it's early spring here and therefore still "early", I am saddened by not being able to see how this would work out for him, as there is wind everyday and I believe on any planet:-)
Nevertheless I am grateful to be able to at times detachedly look at it and to thus learn how to deal with this seemingly unsolvable situation that is uncomfortable for both of us but for V. really difficult.
Now that I am writing this I am looking with new eyes to the mini vision board I made a few days ago - as it talks a lot about being outside, in nature - on the beach and open..:-) This really made me smile. Now it makes a lot of sense, thank you:-) As well as the color orange that talks about owning it:-)