lessons from a broken computer

(..or why I am not writing a blog every day, like I said I would..)

You know, this is probably.. this must be the most difficult part of my business.. 

Telling the truth at all times - with love. 
Love - for all of us involved.. Me, included.

I guess the first thing that comes to my mind about this promise I made to myself (that I am not respecting) is that life is a cycle made of cycles. 

You know what they say, that in 3 dimensions life looks like a spiral (my favourite) - but in real life it might feel like from time to time we arrive in the same (rotten) spot we were in a few months back or a few years back and think: Geez, I thought I already dealt with that.. 

And still, here it is. Again.

Same here. 

In "real life" I had a "real reason" to stop my project of 365 days of blogging only after... hahaha, a week.. :-) 
Namely, my "real life reason" was that my beloved laptop broke. 
It didn't break-break - but some of the letters went striking - Y, U, I, O. 
(Like, the most important :-) the letters in Y O U and I :-) )

I did several practical things to find a solution - about which I will probably write at length another time, for the ones out there who might find themselves in the same kind of situation.. 
For now, let's just say I had a few kind of partial solutions for a while - but not a complete one until I bought a new laptop.. Which happened about one month after I stopped my baby 365 days project :-) 

A month after! Gasp!
I promised to write 365 days, I wrote 7 in a row.. and now it was 30 days later..!

It gave me food for thought. 
About how resistance can manifest itself in all these mysterious ways. 
About how I did not even know when this whole month passed. 
About how, after a month of not writing a thing, I had little to no inspiration. 
About how before my computer broke I could not stop writing for more than 3 months.. 

..About how difficult it was to even consider writing this blog post. 

Yet, here I am, writing it. 

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