​I am just back from this year’s (long due) holiday.
And what a holiday it was!
I took 4 weeks - most of them internet-less, - to be with myself and my son - and with Romania and my parents. 

Romania - the land I was born in, it feels like a mother. A “mother” land that I HAD TO love and respect. One that I feel that I am finally letting go of.

It is a process, like most things are. I did not wake up one morning and said, here, I let you go, Romania. I am separate from you. I am me and I am free. I am independent of you and all your stuff. I am a human and an international citizen, I am not a "Romanian" anymore. 

But while being there this past month, I finally felt it: it does not matter, Romania has no real grip on me anymore.
I can enjoy what I love about this land and I do not feel attached to the shit.
​Yay for that.

It's amazing to me how time flies!
Two weeks ago already I have been at the Raw Food Festival. (scroll down to find my name).

​Together with Irene from Chocodelic and Annet from Raw Food NL we organised the "Raw Chocolate Paradise" where I spoke about raw chocolate as ceremonial drink and gave two workshops about making the simplest raw chocolate recipe - with CPTG essential oils (made a video with this recipe, see it here).

I had with me my Shiny Boxes, a lot of different chocolates to taste and a presentation of my new "Raw Chocolate with Essential Oils" course coming up soon, on Monday, July 11th. (check it out)

What an inspired active audience and colleagues, I left feeling uplifted and energised and with a lot of ideas about new raw chocolate recipes.

OK, darn it.
I'll admit it. 
I am wrong, I am all kinds of wrong.

• ​My vids are too long.
• The blogs I long to write are inappropriate for my biz.
• I have no idea whether I should write in US or UK English. Or in Dutch. Or in Romanian
• The book I am writing has little to nothing to do with my blog OR my biz. It started as a recipes book but this is not what it ends up to be every time I sit to write. And it's in English while I am a Romanian, living in the Netherlands. Confusing. Impossible to publish.
• My art does no match my business model.
• I am a single mother, homeschooling, having a business with at least 10 business model running at the same time.

My house is often a chaos.

​When he kindly asked me to go back “in time” to where I come from, I was confused.
There is no time to go back into, there are only other dimensions.

I could feel myself going back through 3-dimensional realities (why do we call them dimensions? 3-dimensional dimension? 4-dimensional dimension? Realities, that's a better world).

They are many and I was looking forward to going to that one, you know, the light and everything, where we all come from and where we go when we die.

In the same time, my poor body was getting really uncomfortably cold, like every time I am trying to pull back.
Wait!
​Who is the me pulling back from my body?

Gently, he called me back to the experience, asking me where I was.

Why do I talk so much about myself? 
Is it because I think I am the next best thing after sliced bread? 
​Watch my video confession below:

All these thing I am talking about in my courses, workshops, videos, blogs, Facebook posts, one short, what you hear from me?
They are all tools. Tools that helped me.
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Tools that I can teach you - to take care of yourself.

And they are not the only way to reach whatever purpose destination you want to reach.
You are not going to hear me, my way is the only way.
(“I did it my way”..  sing along)
It is my way. But it does not have to be yours if it does not float your boat.

One of the things I do not get on Earth is how much we get invested in.. our opinion about something.
Like I said in one of my videos these last few days. We have to have an opinion about things and then, after we got one, we fight for it, sometimes to the death. And sometimes to the death of so many other people, too.
I don’t get it.
And I don’t defend it, propose it or fight for this.

My opinion and my way of doing things are built on just my path. 
If you share my opinion, if you read what I am writing or hear me - or feel my energy - and you feel that that same way might be something for you, fine. let’s walk the same path.
You don’t? There’s lots of other ways to follow the same direction - or even go in another direction. 
Earth is big enough for us all, with our different opinions.

I am talking about my passions at the moment and in the same time the pillars of Shining Mama.
And about being a multi passionate. 
Essential oils, raw food,, home-made cosmetica and soaps and art.
First three - wellness for the body, last one, wellness for the soul.
FYI V was totally allright after he jumped from the chair at the beginning of the video. I left his jump in because  of the funny faces I made - for your enjoyment :-) 

If you don't like the colour green of the green smoothies then this is the way to go.
This smoothie does not turn out green but it has a lot of fresh greens inside.

As always, buy organic :-)
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This recipe makes 2 liters smoothie. If you have a smaller blender can just add water to fill and you will get a thicker smoothie.

Do you suffer from "creative insomnia"?
Try my tip described in this video:

First sea dip of this year! It was cold but so, so nice and refreshing.
It was Sunday so V asked me to do something "not work" so we cycled to the beach.
Plus a story about finding my voice.

So I must admit, I had no idea what this challenge would be about.
Initially I wanted April's Shine this year to be a program.
These last few years I held a 30 days challenge every year and I still wanted to invite everyone to join me.
Thing is, this last year I almost stopped sharing things online. There was a lot of Facebooking but that was about it.
Things were happening at such a fast speed, live life (sic) kinda took over my online life.
Painful things happened. Getting to know myself happened in a very deep and profound way..