I am still aligned with the natural cycles.. (Although arguably the Easter happening is more man made than natural)..
I am, I am still aligned, especially my body is.
In the same time there are other cycles, natural to me now, that are in the spot light nowadays..
In my little family, it's superhero time already a few months - and while we went through the well-known Superman, Spider-Man, Batman and the more modern Ironman and Thor, we are now in the 'invent a new one' phase, where V is inventing a new superhero or two everyday.
It is fun and exciting to see what he comes up with and how he adapts what he sees on YouTube to make his own costume and see it as 'the real thing'..
And then there are the cycles of Shining Mama..
The April's Shine online group program that was in April, as every year since 2012.
The Shine cafe, each first Thursday of every month.. (except for the next few months).
The rest of the programs and courses I am running..
My art making..
Shiny boxes, raw snacks, taxes, reading the ten-twenty books by my bed right now, participating in the programs where I am a student, staying on top of things..
And My Journal.. :-) (..that you are reading right now)
Lots of things going on in the same time..
And I have an announcement to make. Or two in one.. Or 5 in one.
I am just going to do it.. :-)
(It feels really vulnerable but here it is..)
..there are a few books that want to come out of me.
I am writing and writing and writing. Hundreds of pages. Tens of pages every day sometimes..
Remember when I was talking about the weird part of not keeping up with my blog, although I used to experience the world through written words?
These last two months I entered a new phase of self discovery. Through words.
You know how I went on and on at one point last year about being myself and showing you myself..?
Turns out, most of all of myself was still hidden and in hiding..
I suspect we discover more and more about ourselves anyway.. But in this case, it turns out just the declaration of it brought up lots of stuff that wanted to first be seen by myself and now this stuff wants to be revealed.
I am participating as a student in three courses right now. One of them started with taking an intesting personality test - the DISC..
Basically this guy, Mr. Marston, came up with four basic personalities. Being the visual (nerd) person that I am, I was kinda disturbed that three of the personality types are basic colors (red, yellow, blue) and the fourth one is green (which is a combination between blue and yellow).. (In the same time, can you argue with nature? There are only three basic colors so what was the guy to do? )
Anyway, when our teacher presented this model, I thought I was all green..
It just figured, you know.. I am green :-) I eat green, I drink green, I dream of green, green is my fav color.. :-) I even invented green raw chocolate :-) (my raw chocolate colleagues copied it really fast ;-) )
Turns out, when I took the personality test, I am three colors! Better said, my personality is a mix of three, I have high scores in three of them (red, yellow and green)..
I found it thoroughly annoying.
I just want to be green, I thought, hey, mr. Marston, this must be wrong..
So I went on and looked for other personality tests that would be more accurate.
I found another one on How to Fascinate.
And yes, here I am, green - this time really green.. :-)
And it says in my results...
"The ENFP personality is a true free spirit. They are often the life of the party, but unlike Explorers, they are less interested in the sheer excitement and pleasure of the moment than they are in enjoying the social and emotional connections they make with others. Charming, independent, energetic and compassionate, the 7% of the population that they comprise can certainly be felt in any crowd.
YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD WITH JUST AN IDEA..
ENFPs are fiercely independent, and much more than stability and security, they crave creativity and freedom.
ENFPs tend to get deeply involved in others' lives, going to great lengths and efforts to be the selfless, caring and supportive people they are, and all the while forget to take care of themselves.
ENFP parents will embrace and encourage productive interests as they arise, sweeping away dolls and dinosaurs when interests shift to the oceans, and sweeping away the fish when tastes change again, to the stars.
(last but not least)
ENFP CAREERS “Can't I fly helicopters AND be an oceanographer who writes songs and cooks?”
The thing is, I was always wondering how come I am such a mix.. and Shining mama is a mix, my art is mixed media and I cannot "decide".. When people ask me what I do I have a long story instead of a few words.. And I am not happy if I do not have 10 proverbial plates in the air..
... Turns out I am not alone.
Turns out, I am not a freak, not a looser, not ADHD, not 'all over the place'.. There's nothing wrong with me for not being able to 'concentrate' on one thing..
Turns out, I am a a multi-passionate, a 'renaissance person' (the Renaissance Soul, by Margaret Lobenstine), a multipotentialite (term coined by Emily Wapnick from Puttylike), a scanner (term coined by Barbara Sher).. (I've read all their books by now)..
I cannot NOT do what I am passionate about - all the time.
I cannot NOT love my ten plates and keep them in the air without breaking them.
If only one plate is up in the air is spinning - I feel like I will shrink and die.. Like my other plates would break - and break me - because they are not in the air spinning..
.. I find it fascinating and sad in the same time - to observe how much shame there is around this subject, of being like this..
I even feel I am embarrassed to write about it - when it is only nature to me.
We are taught that we should concentrate on one thing and do that for the rest of our lives.
We are taught that a master is 'one who practiced one kind of stroke for a thousand times, not one thousand kind of strokes one time'..
While that is probably true, I would die of boredom after the tenth same stroke.. Ok, maybe the thirtieth..
I could NEVER become that kind of master.
I love doing many things.. I love letting my passions evolve in their own time - or studying one until I squeezed everything there was in it and made it my own juice.. and I love coining ways in which to combine my passions..
My green smoothie drinking and teaching about it is closely related to composting, taking good care of our body in a natural manner - and taking care of Mother Earth..
My soap making and body care - and the teaching of it comes from wanting to be an agent of change in how we treat Mother Earth and in what kind of trace we leave for our children.
My raw chocolate and treats are as much as possible packed in recycled and recyclable self made packages and boxes..
My art is coming from the depth of our unseen collective wisdom and is a reflection of standing tall in this world - and of taking care of ourselves..
My teaching intuitive art making comes from my desire to help everybody who needs to tap into their soul world, in the depth of the collective so they can heal themselves and thus start healing the world around them as well..
It is a big spiral and I am riding the waves of inspiration as they come.
I am a big believer in the Universe and it's energy supporting us and helping us.
.. In my soul which wants to be expressed through me living this life.
.. In the abundance of life and in thriving - if we set ourselves to it.
I am a big believer that things come to us as we need them to - good things or bad things, lessons..
I am a big believer that if we wish it, we can - it.
That where's a wish, there's a way.
And that awareness is the key to living.
.. In a nutshell.. :-)