I believe in signs. I believe in a greater power of life that guides us all to live as a whole on this little Planet, as one immense organism. I also believe that each and every one of us is capable of reading these signs and that, in order to be in balance withe everything that surrounds us, we better not forget how to do that.. I will not go ten steps backwards when I see a black cat, it's not this kind of signs I am referring to. But if I want to get somewhere and three means of transport break down before I even start on my journey, I would start to wonder if going is such a good idea.
On the other hand, I am constantly catching myself forgetting all this above :-)
Today, for example, is Wednesday. In this little family of mine, Wednesday equals a trip to the farmer's market in a nearby town. Recently I even stand behind a market stall selling raw treats sometimes, thanks to Heike from Ciao Bella Canella. I love it all, the interaction with people buying or just tasting, the making of the treats, the energy I and they get from it, all of it.
Today I just went there for the weekly organic produce shopping and for tasting Heike's yum creations.
single mama tiredness
I seem to want to write to you when I have a more challenging time at being grateful. I FULLY accept that. It is probably so that in our best days we take it for granted. So thank you for the reminder..
1. Thank you for tiredness. I slept 3 hours last night, being literally taken away by a wave of inspiration.. And anger.. Do you know, like burning, challenging, "boom in the years heart" anger.. I tried to fall asleep and when I realized I could not, I chose for the best alternative: use the anger as fuel and let inspiration take over. I so love it when that happens.. And those 3 hours of sleep? Bliss with V. in my arms.
(ehmm, what was that all about with that short nightmare with how the world would end? I though we were on the same page with this and that we decided I do not need bad dreams any more?).
2. Thank you for how things always turn out for the best for me. I catch myself (in the rye..:-) ) worrying and then I REMEMBER: you always take care of me. You always come in when I need you to. And I always can do what I want to do. I know it sounds cryptical and I know you know what I mean.
3. When I was young I was writing to "my perfect best friend".. had no idea that your name was "Life" and you were a girl:-) I was so in love with you, with butterflies in my belly and all that! Over time, it changed into a deep deep feeling of gratefulness. Thank you.
Some days are just a itsy bitsy more difficult, ya know? I bet you never have that problem, do you, Life? :-)
I mean, it was just full moon yesterday and this lil family was blasting through resistance like there was no tomorrow..:-)
And during these times it seems more difficult to sit and contemplate the beauty of you.. No contemplation whatsoever:-)
So I thought I'd just like to drop you a note saying that we are still here, loving you & all.
That was it for today, I go read those books my lovely V. is asking me to since I started with writing this.:-)
Kikker the Frog, here I come!
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